Philosophy of a loner (reject)

[blaze985]

Hey, dude. I don't even know if you remember me... You taught me how to play MvC, and I had a lot of great talks with you... at some bad times in my life.

I'm sorry you're going through a bad time - feel free to e-mail me or contact me via MSN/AIM. I won't pretend to be able to give you advice or anything, but I can at least listen. Sometimes that's better than nothing.

Good to hear from you again. =)

[SBYRD5]

You are just debating with your own individual nature....

I mean your contrasting everyone........everyone hangs in certian cliques.....

If you meet a group of people with similar experience to yours..you could coup on a similar level...

Not someone pessitmistic..like myself..

or someone with an overwhelming ego..

but maybe someone slightily torn...on the edge...or a revolation...something like that..

your just embracing awareness....

As you experience things...the obvious things become so clear....

and your peers ignore....the emotional genocide... http://bbs.projectx.cyberfuturism.com/non-cgi/emoticons/plain.gif

[blaze985]

Dude...

No matter what thoughts you have. No matter how ugly you see yourself to be, or how ugly anyone else thinks you are...

It doesn't matter to me. A friend isn't a friend only through convenience or ease. A friend is there through all times, no matter what.

And that's what I am to you, be it over the internet or otherwise.

[SBYRD5]

I'm more than sure probally only myself an a handful of other's even remeber you...

Ugliness you say...

You could just say you view things bluntily now...

But you over examine things..

life is a paradise dropping....

and yet you only need to live....


You should talk to childern and teach them....when you teach a child something constructive..it does something to your....umm essence...

[blaze985]

Most people have that same fear.

Truth be told, everyone is always worried about what everyone else thinks of them. But, everyone is so worried about what everyone else thinks of them, they rarely have time to judge anyone else.

And when they do, it's only to avoid themselves being judged.

[SBYRD5]

http://bbs.projectx.cyberfuturism.com/non-cgi/emoticons/rock.gif

The time you take to to focus on others you miss ample time to...

brush your teeth....

eat an apple...

heck buy a X-BOX 360..

you never know..

and what happened to that ken combo signature you had Troy..I thought that was sick back in the day...

[-Big_Boi-]

Quote[/b] (Troy88 @ Feb. 18 2006,2:09)]My biggest fear socially has always been that once people see how wierd I really am, they won't want to have anything to do with me. This is kind of like me facing my fear.

I'll be the first to admit that I'm a little bit of a drama queen. What can I say? The glass has always been half empty.
well phuck those kinda people then kuz tru friendz will like u 4 who u are and what u do not what u look like or who u chill with but if thatz your biggest fear juzz do it and get over it therez nothin 2 fear there therez lotz of worse thingz 2 b afraid of then your socail standrdz but yea i gotta go so peace


P.s u should look at tha glass half full sometimez it could b good 4 u

[dominicankid098]

Hey Troy88, long time no see. :P If you don't remember me, I was Lancer_PX on the game.

[Zpower]

First off you have to LIKE YOURSELF. If you do not like yourself whoeles is going to like you... Have self-respect it isnt bad to like yourself. It is worse if you dont... meaning you will never have self-courage and will always be a coward mentally....which is horrible..... now on to your problems...
Sounds to me like you have no purpose or goals in life. If you do not find your purpose and/or make certain goals to achieve you'll always feel lost. Isolation from your peers isnt the end of the world. Friends will not be with you forever even the best of friends will part due to death or other certain situations. Also friends come a dime a dozen the same can be said for women you may find attractive. Theres too many people in the world to get stuck on certain friends and certain women or vise-versa. If you get rejected...simply move on easy as pie.. =D
Also everyone in the world is not going to like you. You could have the most money in the world, you could have the best body, best smile, best laugh, be the most intelligent person in the world, be nice to everyone you meet......and still SOMEONE will not like you. That said do not worry about people not liking you....
Ok now .... you need some goals man... I would advise you sit down and instead of examining all the bad things in your life examine all the things you can be doing. Then start doing them... you can do so much with your life that the possibilities are endless...many people would love to be in your shoes man. Think of the homeless, starving, mentality sick, and uncurable ill people in the world..
Finally, love yourself always find something to look forward to the next day. Have high ambitions and strive to live the best life you can. You only have one life, so live your life to the fullest. Hey everyone has bad days even people who you think have everything. Hey lifes great man.... it's what you make it... =D peace

[Mercedes04]

Quote[/b] (Troy88 @ Feb. 18 2006,12:31)]Hello. Remember me? I used to play this game a lot when I was out on medical leave from my job, when I had my knees operated on. I had a lot of time on my hands, and I was completely isolated - had no friends, no life, etc. I always liked this forum, because (most of) the people were cool, and intelligent. I don't even know how many of the people I used to play this game with even come to this forum anymore, but I feel like revealing some of my deepest, darkest thoughts. I want to see how people react to it. I've been doing a lot of soul-searching lately, and I've come to realize that I am a very, very ugly person inside. I don't like who I am, and I don't even begin to know how to change. These are just random thoughts of mine.

I hate myself for being different, I hate everyone else for being the same.

I don't want to be normal. I want to be me.

I don't love anyone enough to lead, I don't respect anyone enough to follow.

Beautiful people never have to really do anything difficult in their lives, because there's always someone else willing to do it for them.

All you have to do to be friends with arrogant people is humble yourself, arrogant people love lackeys, and they love the fact that you don't feel as good about yourself as they do - it builds them up. In other words, they'll be your friend, so long as you don't try to put yourself on their level.

Confidence to you is arrogance to me.

Confidence is phony. Most people either get it by putting others down, or by lying about who they are.

Humble is real. People that don't have an ego don't feel like they have to impress anyone.

Isolation is hell.

Isolation and hate go hand in hand.

Hate is contagious.

The true nature of good is to put others first in all things (selflessness), the true nature of evil is put yourself first in all things (selfishness).

Ask nothing, take nothing, need nothing.

Independance and selfishness go hand in hand.

Do unto me as I do unto you.

Judge me, and I will judge you.

If I can't be accepted the way that I am, I don't want to be accepted at all.

It's better to be hated for who you are than loved for what you're not.

It's better to offend people with the truth than to please them with lies.

The Bible was written by men. Men lie.

Respect is more important than love.

If you can't love me for who I am, respect me for being who I want to be.

Just because I'm insecure doesn't mean I'm going to let you walk all over me, and just because I'm needy doesn't mean I need you.

Jesus was a rebel.

Men can't stand to be told that they are wrong.

My conscience is God, my insecurities are my demons.

Women that play hard to get are looking for someone to abuse.

I hate everyone equally; it doesn't matter what you believe, I don't believe in you.

Love isn't real.

True rebels don't choose to be rebels. They are chosen by their peers.

I want to be a good person, but I can't find anyone worth showing it to.

I want everyone else to hurt like I do.

It's better to be a real nobody than a fake somebody.



I know some of the things that I've said are pretty disturbing. All I can say in my defense is that if you spent even half as much time at the bottom as I have, you'd understand where I'm coming from.
I feel all of that. Some very deep thoughts there

[azncat]

Quote[/b] (Troy88 @ Feb. 18 2006,12:31)]Hello. Remember me? I used to play this game a lot when I was out on medical leave from my job, when I had my knees operated on. I had a lot of time on my hands, and I was completely isolated - had no friends, no life, etc. I always liked this forum, because (most of) the people were cool, and intelligent. I don't even know how many of the people I used to play this game with even come to this forum anymore, but I feel like revealing some of my deepest, darkest thoughts. I want to see how people react to it. I've been doing a lot of soul-searching lately, and I've come to realize that I am a very, very ugly person inside. I don't like who I am, and I don't even begin to know how to change. These are just random thoughts of mine.

I hate myself for being different, I hate everyone else for being the same.

I don't want to be normal. I want to be me.

I don't love anyone enough to lead, I don't respect anyone enough to follow.

Beautiful people never have to really do anything difficult in their lives, because there's always someone else willing to do it for them.

All you have to do to be friends with arrogant people is humble yourself, arrogant people love lackeys, and they love the fact that you don't feel as good about yourself as they do - it builds them up. In other words, they'll be your friend, so long as you don't try to put yourself on their level.

Confidence to you is arrogance to me.

Confidence is phony. Most people either get it by putting others down, or by lying about who they are.

Humble is real. People that don't have an ego don't feel like they have to impress anyone.

Isolation is hell.

Isolation and hate go hand in hand.

Hate is contagious.

The true nature of good is to put others first in all things (selflessness), the true nature of evil is put yourself first in all things (selfishness).

Ask nothing, take nothing, need nothing.

Independance and selfishness go hand in hand.

Do unto me as I do unto you.

Judge me, and I will judge you.

If I can't be accepted the way that I am, I don't want to be accepted at all.

It's better to be hated for who you are than loved for what you're not.

It's better to offend people with the truth than to please them with lies.

The Bible was written by men. Men lie.

Respect is more important than love.

If you can't love me for who I am, respect me for being who I want to be.

Just because I'm insecure doesn't mean I'm going to let you walk all over me, and just because I'm needy doesn't mean I need you.

Jesus was a rebel.

Men can't stand to be told that they are wrong.

My conscience is God, my insecurities are my demons.

Women that play hard to get are looking for someone to abuse.

I hate everyone equally; it doesn't matter what you believe, I don't believe in you.

Love isn't real.

True rebels don't choose to be rebels. They are chosen by their peers.

I want to be a good person, but I can't find anyone worth showing it to.

I want everyone else to hurt like I do.

It's better to be a real nobody than a fake somebody.



I know some of the things that I've said are pretty disturbing. All I can say in my defense is that if you spent even half as much time at the bottom as I have, you'd understand where I'm coming from.
ok... so i dont know you BUT i just want to state that here in these forums everyone is cool with everyone. loner or not *** or straight. personally i dont care who a person is or what they do or how they do it but its what makes them tick that intrests me. i see that youve gone through a lot of experience in life so far and that i can only relate to half of it... though you are somewhat different than many people it doesnt matter. you make who you are x_X...i dont blame you for hating people who are trying to be the same etc hell i think i even hate myself x_X.... even though we here in the forums even though we dont know each other we all support each other. for example we dont know you or hotsexi_chick but we help... im just saying that even though we cant see you etc. we are here for you buddy o.0... hell even my brothers whom are very obnoxious and errogant, support you x_X.... life is the way it is what we do shapes our furture i think youve had a GREAT life... youve got a fit body... your a loner >_>.... you have a house... but that ends up in consequences that you dotn want to face.... if you want to be different then go ahead no one is stopping you.... but try not to show your ugly side though.

as far as i know i havent said anything that really matters or makes any sense xD.... welll azn_cat OUT o.O...

[silver-ken]

Ur not a good person if youlook down on urself
thats just the Devil tryin to bring u down

U say u want every 1 to hurt like u do...... Kid this is life
life isnt fair man. Wat good is that gonna do if ppl hurt like u.
Man u cant even remeber wat u said. U said that u hate every1 for being the same. Ppl will be the same if they hurt like u. I dont care if im hurt cuz if i am i just pray for things to get better. Lookin down on urself is it gonna solve problems...... neither is running away only thing that is if youconfront ur problems. To be honest i dont care wat ppl say about me cuz its probally coming from som1 who feels bad about their self or who wants som1 to get on their level.

Before u say u hate urself... Think about the unique qualities u have.

[azncat]

Quote[/b] (Troy88 @ Feb. 21 2006,8:06)]Everyone tells me to be myself. How can I be myself without showing my ugly side?
hm.... then try hanging with people that share what you feel... or make friends with people that want to know the real you or make friends that no nothing about you and tell them your story

[silver-ken]

Troy 88 the best thing for u yo do is wat azn_cat said and wat i said

[SSJKarma]

hi TROY88, i remember you, but i don't remember much more then that !
we didn't used to talk much back then !

Quote[/b] ]I hate myself for being different, I hate everyone else for being the same.
Like many of us do... its how the world is, you cannot do anything about that !

Quote[/b] ]I don't want to be normal. I want to be me.
you always was yourself, its the others who see you as someone else ! a good thing to say about this to proove it, is that you didn everything that lead you to this point and you did it yourself. if someone encouraged you to do it. it didn't matter as you took the desision to do it and follow his lead !

Quote[/b] ]I don't love anyone enough to lead, I don't respect anyone enough to follow.
can't say i understand enough to say anything about this...
following people only makes you go so far in far. you always have to go the way you want all by yourself. creating your own ways, your own paths. and if someone follows, just ignore him. unless you want to help him in some ways.

Quote[/b] ]Beautiful people never have to really do anything difficult in their lives, because there's always someone else willing to do it for them.
that's such an understatement. people aren't beautifull... they all are ugly in their ways. because their paths can never be total beauties. people who follows those beauties can only be led to their doom. as long as you don't see them as beautfull. you won't fall in that trap.

Quote[/b] ]All you have to do to be friends with arrogant people is humble yourself, arrogant people love lackeys, and they love the fact that you don't feel as good about yourself as they do - it builds them up. In other words, they'll be your friend, so long as you don't try to put yourself on their level.
then simply don't be friends with whom you don't want to be.

Quote[/b] ]Confidence to you is arrogance to me.
so what is your definition of Confidence ?
Confidence to me is nothing more then a way to acknowledge yourself, cause if you don't acknowledge yourself you won't go anywhere ! that is my definition. what's yours ?

Quote[/b] ]Confidence is phony. Most people either get it by putting others down, or by lying about who they are.
not really... its all a matter who how you see it. its not confidence to throw others down. but it is to know what's your worth ! some people just can't see the way to show what they are worth if not comparing themselves to others. true confidence is gained throught only yourself without judging others.

Quote[/b] ]Humble is real. People that don't have an ego don't feel like they have to impress anyone.
everyone has an ego... some have small ones others have big bad ones. being an humble person is nothing more then a way to make the others feels better. i know what i'm talking about. i am to humble for my own goods. that many times makes me go backward instead of forward !

Quote[/b] ]Isolation is hell.
AMEN, nobody in the world deserves to be isolated !

Quote[/b] ]Isolation and hate go hand in hand.
why would you hate if your isolated *and have nothing to hate ? hate doesn't mean isolated...

Quote[/b] ]Hate is contagious.
AMEN, that's why the world doesn't turn right !

Quote[/b] ]The true nature of good is to put others first in all things (selflessness), the true nature of evil is put yourself first in all things (selfishness).
i don't see it this way... good people's will know what to do in the right situation. evil can only think of what's worth for him. in a way you are right about selfishness and selflessness. *but you know as well as me that good and evil is a battle we have never understood right from the start. can it really be defined by humans terms ?

Quote[/b] ]Ask nothing, take nothing, need nothing.
then be nothing !
asking is the first step in creating bonds to the right persons.
taking something is the way to have something to give.
needing something is what makes you go forward.

Quote[/b] ]Independance and selfishness go hand in hand.
again, not really a good way to see it.
being independant makes you stronger. stronger doesn't mean selfishness.
but selfishness and independance makes you isolated.

Quote[/b] ]Do unto me as I do unto you.
AMEN !

Quote[/b] ]Judge me, and I will judge you.
doesn't this means the same as the above statement ?

Quote[/b] ]If I can't be accepted the way that I am, I don't want to be accepted at all.
then never be accepted by anybody...
nobody will ever accept someone as he really is.
cause nobody can like every aspect of someone. that's why everybody is ugly !

Quote[/b] ]It's better to be hated for who you are than loved for what you're not.
then again, nobody is perfect !

Quote[/b] ]It's better to offend people with the truth than to please them with lies.
give me the definition of a truth ?
you might think a person is selfish and that its better to throw him at the face. but that would not be anything more then a statement given by yet another human being. truth is nothingmore then a vision . a way to see things from your point of view !

Quote[/b] ]The Bible was written by men. Men lie.
AMEN, yet not all men lies !

Quote[/b] ]Respect is more important than love.
If you respect someone then clearly you like him or her ! thus both are a necessity for love to bloom !

Quote[/b] ]If you can't love me for who I am, respect me for being who I want to be.
same as above.

Quote[/b] ]Just because I'm insecure doesn't mean I'm going to let you walk all over me, and just because I'm needy doesn't mean I need you.
DISCUSSIONS my friend. discussions...
it's not because you think they walk over you that you don't need their help. its all a matter of views, the human have so many of these !

Quote[/b] ]Jesus was a rebel.
all a matter of opinion !
what's a rebel if not someone who thinks otherwise ?

Quote[/b] ]Men can't stand to be told that they are wrong.
only the bad people cannot take the truth about not being perfect !

Quote[/b] ]My conscience is God, my insecurities are my demons.
then how can you differ them both ?
your conscience sometimes give you false idea's. insecurities only reinforce that idea's !

Quote[/b] ]Women that play hard to get are looking for someone to abuse.
does that makes them better or worse then what you are thinking now ?

Quote[/b] ]I hate everyone equally; it doesn't matter what you believe, I don't believe in you.
believe... yet another lie to yourself. as long as you believe in yourself then what others believe of you doesn't matter !

Quote[/b] ]Love isn't real.
but it can save lives ! (true story by my best friend)

Quote[/b] ]True rebels don't choose to be rebels. They are chosen by their peers.
again, what's a rebel... if not someone who thinks differently from others ? their peers might have chosen them. but its him who rallyed themall in the first place ! thus a rebel is a leader. something the world doesn't need !

Quote[/b] ]I want to be a good person, but I can't find anyone worth showing it to.
Then you'll wait for eternity... you'll have to determine for yourself what is the definition of good and evil !

Quote[/b] ]I want everyone else to hurt like I do.
Then you didn't see the world as he really is...
every single person in the world hurts others reguardless of it being wanted or not !

Quote[/b] ]It's better to be a real nobody than a fake somebody.
but isn't it better to be somebody in th emiddle then being one or the others ?

Quote[/b] ]Everyone tells me to be myself. How can I be myself without showing my ugly side?
you can't !
you're ugly side will always resurface at the wrong time.
but a true friend,or a true good person won't care for its gonna know it has her own ugly side, and he/she might even shows it to you for you to understand how ugly the world is !

[ildaphonse]

Quote[/b] (SSJKarma @ Feb. 22 2006,8:30)]hi TROY88, i remember you, but i don't remember much more then that !
we didn't used to talk much back then !

Quote[/b] ]I hate myself for being different, I hate everyone else for being the same.
Like many of us do... its how the world is, you cannot do anything about that !

Quote[/b] ]I don't want to be normal. I want to be me.
you always was yourself, its the others who see you as someone else ! a good thing to say about this to proove it, is that you didn everything that lead you to this point and you did it yourself. if someone encouraged you to do it. it didn't matter as you took the desision to do it and follow his lead !

Quote[/b] ]I don't love anyone enough to lead, I don't respect anyone enough to follow.
can't say i understand enough to say anything about this...
following people only makes you go so far in far. you always have to go the way you want all by yourself. creating your own ways, your own paths. and if someone follows, just ignore him. unless you want to help him in some ways.

Quote[/b] ]Beautiful people never have to really do anything difficult in their lives, because there's always someone else willing to do it for them.
that's such an understatement. people aren't beautifull... they all are ugly in their ways. because their paths can never be total beauties. people who follows those beauties can only be led to their doom. as long as you don't see them as beautfull. you won't fall in that trap.

Quote[/b] ]All you have to do to be friends with arrogant people is humble yourself, arrogant people love lackeys, and they love the fact that you don't feel as good about yourself as they do - it builds them up. In other words, they'll be your friend, so long as you don't try to put yourself on their level.
then simply don't be friends with whom you don't want to be.

Quote[/b] ]Confidence to you is arrogance to me.
so what is your definition of Confidence ?
Confidence to me is nothing more then a way to acknowledge yourself, cause if you don't acknowledge yourself you won't go anywhere ! that is my definition. what's yours ?

Quote[/b] ]Confidence is phony. Most people either get it by putting others down, or by lying about who they are.
not really... its all a matter who how you see it. its not confidence to throw others down. but it is to know what's your worth ! some people just can't see the way to show what they are worth if not comparing themselves to others. true confidence is gained throught only yourself without judging others.

Quote[/b] ]Humble is real. People that don't have an ego don't feel like they have to impress anyone.
everyone has an ego... some have small ones others have big bad ones. being an humble person is nothing more then a way to make the others feels better. i know what i'm talking about. i am to humble for my own goods. that many times makes me go backward instead of forward !

Quote[/b] ]Isolation is hell.
AMEN, nobody in the world deserves to be isolated !

Quote[/b] ]Isolation and hate go hand in hand.
why would you hate if your isolated and have nothing to hate ? hate doesn't mean isolated...

Quote[/b] ]Hate is contagious.
AMEN, that's why the world doesn't turn right !

Quote[/b] ]The true nature of good is to put others first in all things (selflessness), the true nature of evil is put yourself first in all things (selfishness).
i don't see it this way... good people's will know what to do in the right situation. evil can only think of what's worth for him. in a way you are right about selfishness and selflessness. but you know as well as me that good and evil is a battle we have never understood right from the start. can it really be defined by humans terms ?

Quote[/b] ]Ask nothing, take nothing, need nothing.
then be nothing !
asking is the first step in creating bonds to the right persons.
taking something is the way to have something to give.
needing something is what makes you go forward.

Quote[/b] ]Independance and selfishness go hand in hand.
again, not really a good way to see it.
being independant makes you stronger. stronger doesn't mean selfishness.
but selfishness and independance makes you isolated.

Quote[/b] ]Do unto me as I do unto you.
AMEN !

Quote[/b] ]Judge me, and I will judge you.
doesn't this means the same as the above statement ?

Quote[/b] ]If I can't be accepted the way that I am, I don't want to be accepted at all.
then never be accepted by anybody...
nobody will ever accept someone as he really is.
cause nobody can like every aspect of someone. that's why everybody is ugly !

Quote[/b] ]It's better to be hated for who you are than loved for what you're not.
then again, nobody is perfect !

Quote[/b] ]It's better to offend people with the truth than to please them with lies.
give me the definition of a truth ?
you might think a person is selfish and that its better to throw him at the face. but that would not be anything more then a statement given by yet another human being. truth is nothingmore then a vision . a way to see things from your point of view !

Quote[/b] ]The Bible was written by men. Men lie.
AMEN, yet not all men lies !

Quote[/b] ]Respect is more important than love.
If you respect someone then clearly you like him or her ! thus both are a necessity for love to bloom !

Quote[/b] ]If you can't love me for who I am, respect me for being who I want to be.
same as above.

Quote[/b] ]Just because I'm insecure doesn't mean I'm going to let you walk all over me, and just because I'm needy doesn't mean I need you.
DISCUSSIONS my friend. discussions...
it's not because you think they walk over you that you don't need their help. its all a matter of views, the human have so many of these !

Quote[/b] ]Jesus was a rebel.
all a matter of opinion !
what's a rebel if not someone who thinks otherwise ?

Quote[/b] ]Men can't stand to be told that they are wrong.
only the bad people cannot take the truth about not being perfect !

Quote[/b] ]My conscience is God, my insecurities are my demons.
then how can you differ them both ?
your conscience sometimes give you false idea's. insecurities only reinforce that idea's !

Quote[/b] ]Women that play hard to get are looking for someone to abuse.
does that makes them better or worse then what you are thinking now ?

Quote[/b] ]I hate everyone equally; it doesn't matter what you believe, I don't believe in you.
believe... yet another lie to yourself. as long as you believe in yourself then what others believe of you doesn't matter !

Quote[/b] ]Love isn't real.
but it can save lives ! (true story by my best friend)

Quote[/b] ]True rebels don't choose to be rebels. They are chosen by their peers.
again, what's a rebel... if not someone who thinks differently from others ? their peers might have chosen them. but its him who rallyed themall in the first place ! thus a rebel is a leader. something the world doesn't need !

Quote[/b] ]I want to be a good person, but I can't find anyone worth showing it to.
Then you'll wait for eternity... you'll have to determine for yourself what is the definition of good and evil !

Quote[/b] ]I want everyone else to hurt like I do.
Then you didn't see the world as he really is...
every single person in the world hurts others reguardless of it being wanted or not !

Quote[/b] ]It's better to be a real nobody than a fake somebody.
but isn't it better to be somebody in th emiddle then being one or the others ?

Quote[/b] ]Everyone tells me to be myself. How can I be myself without showing my ugly side?
you can't !
you're ugly side will always resurface at the wrong time.
but a true friend,or a true good person won't care for its gonna know it has her own ugly side, and he/she might even shows it to you for you to understand how ugly the world is !
wow thats is very very deep i belive what troy does but i want to be good but i know... its so true.....i never can ever believe it....but i can still hope .... i hate my best friend because he is mean to me but he is popular and some of my friends i wanna make fun out of...some i cant hear what they are saying.....some girls i wanna show my true love but they are rejecting me........ when i look at myself in the mirror i look at myself as ugly and evil i want to go to heaven but i kinda.... im not gonna say it but its in me...... sigh i lie so much... my life as i tell to myself is a lie...... to me i look so weak but..i look fat almost every friend i had made fun out of me half of the i hate but....i dont want to be your enemy...some people owe me somthing......but....never gi ve what they say is that a lie.....i lie about my age my height my weight my personality...so much more...i dont want to go to hell please.... i dono how to be.... i dono what i am good in i wanna do more in the future about video games but i cant draw can i continue ....this is kinda... i have 2 big secrets my life is a lie and the other....***** it is so embarrising,,,i cant say it u will say EWWWW to me...... i cant say it http://bbs.projectx.cyberfuturism.com/non-cgi/emoticons/sad.gif its so hard even though my family members see me do it they dont know why

[SBYRD5]

I want to hear more about Troy88's life style...

And I think this is by far one of the most interesting topics I've read in a longtime..

[silver-ken]

Troy i think ur sayin this bull ŠHΆ for fun.
I bet ur just lieng and ŠHΆ tryin to get ppl to feel sorry for u.
I seen this plenty of times and it turns out that they are very happy.
And if youare realy living this way
do the world a big favor a drop dead.

[JohnnyBlaze]

instead of being a total emo, do something about it.

[SSJKarma]

can't you see the thing johnny...

the human race needs to feel something once uin a while, otherwise it wouldn't fun to live our lives.
you think it's pity who i gave you troy88 ?
think again... i merely responded to your sayings, but i really like to read these kind of emotions... its fun seeing how others see them besides you...
but again, if you are lost and seek the light in your darkness... then onkly you can do it. we can only talk to you in hope that our voices would tell you we're we stand in that darkness of yours ! feel good or bad, that doesn't matter as long as you feel something that will eventually show you something you just never saw up to this day. after all that's why we do things in life. a good example of this is the way certain persons confront polices and law in general, they do it just for that. because they needed to feel something.

i think that as long as liberty is felt and appreciated... i think you'll find the way you are searching for !

[Zpower]

I read your profile Troy...."I like smoking weed, pumping steroids, and other ill $hit"..... I think those might be your problem right there.